What I want

So I took a big next step - part of the practice what I preach (from my http://dontsayno2012.blogspot.com/2012/03/sexless-marriage-prevention.html Post) - I directed my husbands actions.  Told him what I needed him to do.  I have never done that before - and I think we both got a big payoff.  He was so excited to have learned something about me he was all ready for a repeat performance the next morning.  I had to decline that - it was morning - with a few kids running around.  A quickie was all we had time for.

I know the male readers don't understand how an adult woman that has been with her partner for as long as I have would still struggle with this.  I can only speak for myself and say that sex is something that I have had to figure out on my own and that as much as I want to come out with all my wants, needs and fantasies I still struggle here.  On the other side of that coin - I never refuse anything my husband wants to do or try - so I am not a prude, I am just still learning to make myself heard.  On a side note - more BJs for my husband - 3 in one week, still no happy ending - still having pain - but still practicing.

Unrelated side note - I am amazed at how quickly we are seeing our bees go to work!  This is the compartment that the queen bee arrived in - she moved out of it and into the hive in the first day.  This was removed less than 48 hours into the process.  Fun stuff!

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