Real life

I have been away for a while for a few reasons. Real life has been keeping me busy, I love the new job but getting up to speed is never easy.  Fall sports for the kids and coaching for my husband has us running in different directions, but the seasons will be ending shortly and that will mean a lot more free time.  My lungs have been in bad shape as they are every October/November with the change of weather.  My lungs never function at 100% due to the radiation they endured as part of my cancer treatments, in October and November I function at about 50% which makes life much more difficult.

That said - I have missed posting and catching up on my blogs but I have also had a bit of writers block.  I am in a bit of a sex slump and writing about it makes it more real and also puts the pressure on me to break out of it.  While I want to break out of it I am also a little comfortable in it.  That comes from the old married me.  There is sex, so it isn't a dry spell.  The sex is there but it is not very exciting.  I crave some good hot sex, but life has gotten in the way.  

I'm thinking Sunday is the next good opportunity for not just sex but Great Sex!  I know it is only Tuesday and that seems a long time to wait, I'm sure there will be sex between now and then but with our schedules this week it will be more 'maintenance' sex.  Our last encounter was literally a quickie while I was waiting for the oven to warm up - he had until the magic beep occurred.  I think he appreciated fitting him in (pun intended) while trying to get snacks ready for a day of football watching with the family.  I also think the challenge of the time constraint was fun for him.  The sex wasn't mind blowing - but for me part of the high is the fact that he threw a playful - 'want some of this' my way never expecting me to call him into the bedroom and give him 3 minutes to get it done.  I did enjoy myself but I got more enjoyment out of knowing that he watched the games in a much better mood!

So there you have it - sex has been happening but it has been nothing to write about.  I have avoided writing because then I would have to admit to the slump and own up to being comfortable with that.  Then I am forced to deal with the fact that I hate being comfortable with it because I deserve GREAT sex.  So my promise to you - great sex on Sunday and hey if there is some great sex thrown in before that I'll take it!

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